Saturday, May 30, 2009

Late Night Reflections

Time is swiftly passing by. There are four weeks until the end of school, which also means four weeks until I have to vacate my classroom, my condo and life as I currently know it! I leave for Sierra Leone only days after the last day of school and in between I have to move out of my place. These days life is so jam packed that I have little time to reflect on all the major changes that will happen in my life in the near future. During the day my mind is so busy with work, socializing or doing "stuff" that I give little thought to what lays before me.
Each night as I lay my head down on my pillow and I'm just about to fall asleep I think to myself, "what have I done? Can I really handle all this?" I know that with God's help I can do it but right before I fall asleep, just after I turn off the light (that always has electricity) and I set my alarm clock (that I know will work in the morning) and I snuggle into my sheets (that aren't covered in sweat) and I listen to the silence of my home (no mosquito's buzzing in my ear), I wonder, "why did I want to leave this place?" Of course I'm being melodramatic, I am very eager to go to Haiti to live and work once again. During the day I day dream constantly about what I will do when I'm there. I am so excited to see my old friends and talk to them, really talk to them about all that has happened since I was last there. I look forward to working with the teachers and together improving the quality of education. I love the challenge of starting a special needs program in a country where little is available to assist those with special needs. I am enthusiastic to love people and to show the love of God on a daily basis. It's only at night, when I have a second to reflect, that the doubts come flying in. However, after spending time in prayer and when I wake up in the morning refreshed from a nights sleep, I count down the days until my exciting adventure begins and I can't wait to get started!!

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